My parents were always telling me stories of how they wanted to leave and be free
I also wanted to see something new, something beyond what we had here. In Ireland, I first started off as a dishwasher and then began working in security. This was at the time when many people from eastern Europe came to do simple jobs in the West.
“You came here to steal our jobs and take our money”
That’s what my supervisor would tell me. I hated him. I knew why I was there. It was to grow, learn and make an exhibition. This was my mission. He would just laugh and call me a liar. So I tried to explain it to him in a different way: “I am working here, but I am also paying taxes. So my money will actually pay for your pension, not mine.”
I started living in–between two countries
I began travelling to the Netherlands and totally fell in love. But the Dutch labour market was not yet open to EU-8 nationals, so I started selling my work on the street just to get by. I was sleeping in the park, on a beach, in the central station, anywhere I could lay my head down.
Living abroad taught me that we are all just humans
It doesn’t matter where you are from, but what value you bring. Do you do good unto others, or do you cause harm? In my art, I work with these principles of humanity. I aspire to bring these values to Slovakia, because I see them as important.
In the West, they have no information about us
My first break came from a Dutch gallery. They were looking for something new. Their exhibitions were full of western artists. It was also a question of good timing; Slovakia had joined the EU and western Europeans were curious about the East.
I learned how to be an individual, but also how to take responsibility
Outside, you are a stranger. You know no one. You don’t speak the same language. You don’t share the same mentality. You are far away from your family and friends. It was there that I learned how to rely on myself.
Everybody brings back something closer to his or her personality
Many of my friends continue earning their living abroad, but they bring back to Slovakia new contacts and new ideas. Together, we work on collaborative projects and engage with international galleries.
This is one way we can change the country
When you go abroad, you automatically understand more, because you can better compare. It’s also about establishing new friendships. Today, I operate from a much wider context and network.
I did not want to leave Slovakia for good
A lot of us return because we want to help with change. I want to change Slovakia in the field of art.
I am home here
This testimony was originally published in Zuzana Palovic’s book, The Great Return. You can learn more about the book as well as Palovic’s own journey as a Slovak migrant that later returned to Slovakia at http://thegreatreturn.eu/.
2. Nov 2018 at 10:00 | Zuzana Palovic